Earlier this year, my mother was skiing with my sister. 
She fell. 
She did not survive. 

I have no way of describing or labeling any of the feelings I have. They are too foreign, they are too strong, and language fails me. 
When I try and describe a feeling, it comes out as a metaphor. 

I want these letters to represent the love I cannot express and the love I am thankful for. To fill the emptiness I feel inside of me and to grow the love I feel from each person. I want the letters to represent all my love and all the love that my mom is. 

I am still writing,  and I have a long road ahead.